Throughout this experience, I've been reading a book called "MWF Seeks BFF: My Year Long Search for a New Best Friend" by Rachel Bertsche. http://mwfseekingbff.com/about-the-book/ While I wasn't necessarily looking for a new best friend, I was looking for good girlfriends to hang out with and talk to about, well, all those things that girlfriends talk about. The book helped me see how alike we women can be. It helped me brave new waters-making new friends at 41 totally OUT of my comfort zone. I mean, WAY out of my comfort zone, people! I didn't go as crazy as Rachel did in her search (she did a friend date every week for a year AND is much younger than AND has no children), but I think I did it in my own way. And guess what? I've made new friends. They are as diverse and wonderful as this new place that I now call "home."
Don't get me wrong, it takes time to get to different levels of friendship. My college roommates and PSE friends have dirt on me that will bond us for life (and give us many memorable things to laugh and talk about when we get the chance). These experiences ARE what make the friendship become stronger and live on long after you are in different states and different phases of life. I didn't break out the non filtered version of myself right off the bat. Didn't want to scare anyone off. It takes time to get to a place where you can truly be yourself with people. (I've been married to my husband for 15 years and I STILL don't fart in front of him if I can help it. Sometimes I can't, help it, that is)! So I wasn't about to throw out a slur of 15 curse words in true Jen-style right away. That shit takes time and trust. But, I'm getting there.
Last night we went out for a "going away for awhile" send off for my friend Heather. She's going into witness protection for a little while, just until the trial. Really, she's just moving to Alameda to renovate a house and it's only a 35 minute drive from here. But, she won't be here every day, so a send off was in order. So, seven women, ranging in age from 30's to 50's went out for dinner and then to a dueling piano bar. If you know me at all, you know I'm not much of a bar person. But, you do things that are out of your comfort zone for friends, am I right? It was truly a blast! Yes, things got a little crazy and I got home WAY too late, but the crazy and the late-that's pure friendship bonding time!
At one point, Heather (pictured here on the piano) broke into spontaneous lap dances. I was the lucky recipient of one said lap dance. Yep, we both ended up falling off my bar stool and her beer got spilled-not pretty! But, you don't just meet someone new and hop up on their lap (well, maybe Heather would with enough Corona in her). That type of behavior is usually reserved for someone who knows you well enough to not run away screaming. So happy to have gotten to that point here in Cali with my "newest" friends. Yep, people, a lap dance really does say A LOT!